Time to Begin

One aspect of chronic illness that I've already touched upon is a readjustment of lifestyle that, unavoidably, leads to a readjustment in friendships. I'm no longer a part of the same circles as most of my life is now spent indoors and in bed. As is often said though, one door closes and another opens. A change that I wouldn't swap for the world is that I have formed friendships with some beautiful souls that I have come to cherish.

Due to accident or design, a great number of these new friends are Australian and a large proportion are from Brisbane. I am sure I do not need to clarify why that is significant this week. Although I am far away, geographically, from the tragedies unfolding on the other side of the world from me, I am very much closer in spirit. Much of the past couple of days has been filled with worrying about friends who are caught up in the flooding and feeling helpless.

This in turn has led me reflect on what I CAN do. Hopefully those Brisbane residents who count me as a friend feel I am providing something of use with my solidarity and concern and my donations will help the massive clean-up efforts that await the dissipation of the flood waters. But I eventually realised that there is plenty of practical value I can be doing. Not just for the Australians but for anyone who is facing a future with M.E. and is struggling to find quality information or genuine support. Yes, time to roll up the sleeves and get back to work on the project I've been talking about lately.

I've dealt with the negativity already so I won't go back to that again. Let me just say though that I totally understand not everyone will find the end result of this project something they need or want to access. That's fine. Really.

I'm opening up a 2-week 'ideas' stage from now. For those of you who are part of my Facebook circle, I will be in touch there. For those of you who aren't, it'd be really useful if I was able to include you in the updates and if you could email your thoughts on what should be included in any information produced. Think back to the early days of your illness. What do you wish you had known? What did you need that wasn't easy to find? What do you value most about the resources you currently have (practical or people-related).

The email address to use is: ME_Community_Projects@Live.co.uk

I Have A Dream.... No, Really!

I have a dream.

This could either turn into something magnificent or die a slow death. Either way, I'm convinced it's worth trying to make it manifest.

Fairly recently, I started a Heart Rate Monitor group for those of us who saw the benefit of judging our ability levels based upon what our heart rate tells us. This has resulted in a Facebook group HERE and, more recently, a discussion forum HERE.

My aim with these groups was, and still is, to create a useful resource for the community. A place where information is centrally stored and updated to reflect the constantly changing scientific research in this area. This will continue. However, I am conscious that our heart rates cannot ever be the full picture. For some of us, they serve no useful purpose in relation to mental activity and, for others, they are considerably influenced by prescribed medications, supplements, food and water consumption etcetera.

In my view, there is merit in widening the focus. In taking a more holistic approach to our activity management/avoiding relapses/keeping our bodies as strong and healthy as they can be. This would mean incorporating an awareness of supplements/medication, diet, exercise, how different activities impact our overall health, what activities are particularly stressful for our bodies and how realistic we are about our levels of stamina.

Most of you with ME/CFS will readily be able to identify with the frustrations I experienced in the early days of my illness. Although I consider myself bright and relatively well versed in research, separating the useful information from the nonsense was a difficult task. I can only imagine how much more difficult that is for those who aren't able to scour the internet for information due to ill health or who are instantly discouraged by all the conflicting views on this illness.

This leads me to my dream. Thinking about what I would have valued most in those early days, when neither doctors nor neurologists were providing me with any information or comfort, I envisage a document that includes a collection of relevant scientific data, the collective wisdom of the trailblazing health professionals who are treating sufferers, the sage advice of long-term ME/CFS patients who have already walked the path. Most of this is already out there if you have the time to patiently pull it all together from various sources. When you are scared and sick though, how frustrating is it to have to do it from scratch?

I acknowledge that there are websites out there that already try to serve as a 'one-stop shop' for information and support. What I am suggesting is not at all a new idea. In my experience though, I cannot say I can think of a place that meets my needs in the way I think a regularly updated and streamlined resource could. What I have in mind is not a website but a PDF or similar. Something that people can dip in and out of as required, with searchable, indexed contents. Something that is comprehensive enough to satisfy those that like to voraciously research their new condition whilst remaining accessible to those that only want specific information or can only digest a small amount at a time.

What I am NOT suggesting is that I am going to create my own version of 'How to Cure ME/CFS'. If the greatest scientific and medical minds have not yet reached anywhere near a consensus on how to allow us to recover, what hope would I have? No, instead this would be more like a menu of options. It could contain the various approaches of the leading experts in the field and it could include the anecdotal opinions of the wider community. This would all be provided with the understanding that it offers only opinion/suggestions. It would not be a protocol and it would not preach any single approach.

I am fully aware this is, for the moment, blue-sky thinking. I am also very mindful of my own health limitations and that those involved would most likely have similar limitations. I really do not see that as a reason not to try though. I am already in awe of the talents of many people I have met within the ME/CFS community and I see no reason why that collective potential cannot be harnessed to produce something of lasting purpose and benefit.

Obviously, I cannot do this alone. If it is to achieve the high standards I envisage, it would be no small task. And so, rather than me writing about my feelings or my symptoms or my approach to improving my health, I have decided to write this post. Consider it a call to arms. Consider it an appeal to you all, healthy or ill. Consider it an amazing opportunity to make a real difference. To make this work, it will require the efforts of many people just like you. However little you think you can offer, I am certain we can all contribute. Whether it be a summary of what 'works' for you or a collection of research articles/website links you find invaluable or whether it be skills you have from your professional lives past or present, you can all help make it happen.

In closing, let me reassure you that I am already choosing to overcome the idea that it cannot be done. I would settle for glorious failure before defeatism any day. I do hope John Lennon was right, when he sang:

"You may say I'm a dreamer. But I'm not the only one."

Shake Me & I Rattle

As promised, I'm finally getting around to setting out the pills and potions I currently take.

Unfortunately, the nature of the illness is such that there is no cure and all we are really doing with medications is symptom management. Furthermore, what works for one person seems not to for the next person. It's a very inexact science! With that in mind, I need to state for anyone reading who also has M.E. that trial and error is usually necessary. Also, because I have become ill fairly recently, I am still experimenting to see what works.

So, let's do a quick run-through:

Ascorbic Acid (soluble Vitamin C) -1000mg - This is how I try to start every day. With a glass of effervescent orange-flavoured Vit C. This is no hardship as I enjoy the taste and the fizzing sensation. The benefits of this are too long to list but most important for my particular needs are that Vitamin C is great at scavenging free-radicals and providing immune support. Bear in mind that we never absorb all of the Vitamin C we take in supplemented form. I think it's up to around 20% we absorb and the rest is urinated. All the more reason to also get Vitamin C from food sources.

BioCare Multivitamin - A word of warning on multivitamins. They aren't all the same. Some are really poorly balanced with too much of a certain element or not enough of another. I like the BioCare range as it seems to have the right balance.

Vitamin B3 (Niacinamide) 500mg - Multi-faceted benefits attached to this including blood sugar control, mitochondrial support and a calming effect.

Vitamin D 500ui - Best source is sunshine but being housebound puts paid to that option. Deficiency is very common in the UK and has been shown to be present in various diseases.

Flaxseed Oil 2000mg - We've all heard plenty of the benefits of Omega 3 oils. Whether it be brain food or joint care, Omega 3 can help. Personally, I avoid the fish oils as they are more prone to being loaded with metals (unless you spend a lot on ultra-pure capsules) and I don't like fishy burps much! Flaxseed oil suits me better.

Chromium 200ug - I had a scare with my blood sugar levels and started taking this to assist. My last test showed a decrease so I think it's having an impact.

Co-Enzyme Q10 100mg - Assists in mitochondria (and thus energy supply) and is a powerful anti-oxidant (those pesky free-radicals again). Also seems to provide some support for the gut and has anti-ageing properties - a wonderful drug! It's not a cheap option and be wary of the more budget brands as absorbtion might not be very good. I use Doctor's Best brand.

Milk Thistle 5600mg - When we take a lot of pills our livers have to work extra hard to detox. Milk thistle is supposedly a good help to your liver in this respect. It's also been heralded for helping digestion and reducing Irritable Bowel Syndrome.

L-Carnitine 1000mg - I must admit, I don't always remember to take these as I have run out of room in my pill dispenser! It's an amino acid most commonly found in red meat but few of us eat enough red meat to correct a deficiency. Like many of the other supplements I take, it has been shown to support mitochondrial function.

GABA 1000mg - Another that I don't always remember to take. It has been shown to raise levels of a neurotransmitter that brings about a more relaxed state and can help sleep. I have to say that I haven't seen any benefit from this so far and I probably wont buy more when my stock is depleted. Mind you, me and sleep are hardly friends and I'll be seeking out some dedicated sleep meds from my doctor in due course.

Magnesium Oil - My new favourite. As I've mentioned before, the benefits of magnesium are many. For me, I'm finding it is helping slightly with my muscle spasms and even seems to reduce the severity of my headaches a little. A good way to tell if you are deficient is to spray some onto your skin and see if you get a strange tingling sensation. Epsom Salts are good for bathtime too!

Finally, I try to use a plant sterol spread (Benecol in my case) to keep my cholestorol under control.

So that's my basic list of supplements at present. I am sure the list will change in due course as I will discontinue certain elements or introduce new ones. If anyone has any comments on what's included or suggestions for trying something new please get in touch!

Take care,

Barry