I've decided to take a week or two away from my previous activities. This means no blogging, no Facebooking, no developing the Heart Rate Monitor forum and no working on my previously explained 'dream'. All of these are only on hold temporarily though.
I think this break will do me good on a few levels but it's mainly in response to how my previous ideas have been received within the 'community'. I have been surprised, and dismayed, by how hostile and negative some of the private communications received have been.
I appreciate what I have set out is my vision and I don't expect others to readily buy into it. I appreciate some might think it is pointless. I also expect to do the biggest portion of the work myself. I am fine with that.
I understand that this community is made up of people who are sick and might be struggling just to keep their heads above water and that they cannot devote the time or brain power to helping out. I am fine with that too.
What I am feeling angry about is how some have taken what I consider to be a selfless act and railed against it so. It makes me question the motivations of some who are active within this community of ME/CFS patients. I am saddened that the practical attempts to provide support and information, to those who might otherwise struggle to look after themselves in the absence of medical support, has been tainted by the politics attached to this illness and the bitterness of a few individuals. I must process that and it's best done away from being so active online. I don't intend to stay angry or stay away - I just need to regain my balance so that I can continue to move forward with what I still consider a worthwhile project.
To those out there who have been helpful in providing me with constructive feedback and kind offers of help, I thank you a million times over. It is only through pure-hearted and positive action that progress is made and I look forward to working with you all in the very near future.